i try and try to overcome the depression that i slowly feel seeping its way back into my life, but its starting to overtake me. he does little things, mostly joking around. and even tho i know he's joking it still hurts. i keep telling myself that ive found the man of my dreams and that im happy .. were practically engaged for real now (were paying off the rings as we speak). so why do i still feel like my life should be over? that everything would be so much better if i wasnt here? why cant i just dissapear? when i meet someone with the answer ... maybe i could fix my problem.
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